Hate feeling this way.

I want so much to stop doubting myself . I haven't really had the communication with you that I wanted in the last week and the week before that we were arguing and it made me sad. I think thinks are ok for us. We are both really busy, but the one word texts the seeing you once a week is not what I want. If I see you once a week , let's at least let comminication be a bit better. Right now it's not comforting. I feel as though maybe, you might be talking to other women and not wanting to be with me anymore. Maybe, its our past and how the things you did really tramatized me. I've been re-reading our emails from the first week of october and it makes me feel better. I liked that we could communicate some how, but now , you seem turned off. Maybe Im pushing too much, thinking too much.... I just don't want to lose you again... maybe you just dont want me anymore... Who knows...Im not having the best week.