Despite the Tears

I am alone in my house and half of me is a little scared but the other half likes the solitude. I don't have the constant voices asking me to do various tasks. I finished cleaning one bathroom and now at 8:00pm comes the other one and I will also try and finish the kitchen tonight, though some company would be great. I'll most likely go out and see about just taking a walk and picking up the mail. Listening to all kinds of music all day. It's been nice not to expect anyone home , to just be alone and relax. I added a candle to my bathroom , for this week at least, I can enjoy just going to a relaxing bath. My goal tonight is to finish cleaning the cat's bathroom and start cleaning my dirty kitchen. You know it's funny because my room is a diseaster zone right now and whenever I have lived alone it's always very clean. I just think the atmosphere of my house isn't very positive and it affects how clean my room is. I mean I am really not as messy as my room may lead to. I am actually pretty neat, just the constant bickering gets to me. In any case, I need to finish getting dressed so i can pick up the mail and my laundry downstairs and get to cleaning.


I miss my friend Dave who passed away this summer... answer me this Dave, is it better up there?
Cynthia