saving me for someone who cares...........

I began a babysitting job in which I work from 1pm to 9pm and it's a nightmare. The hours are too long and I also have to sleep over on fridays , so I gave in my week notice and this is my last week. By the end I should hear from the other woman to see if I get that nanny job which I only work monday-friday 1pm-7pm which is nice. I just couldn't deal with going to school in the morning and the go to work for 9 hours, it's too much and i am so tired by the time I get home. In any case, I have been listening to Antony and the Johnsons and Billie Holiday all weekend long. I walked around the west side highway. That's my favorite place to be around the spring/summer time. I should have gone to bed earlier last night but I ended up getting a call from Aaron and we were talking about relationships and all that good stuff. So I didn't get to bed until 1 pm. We decided that one day we will be vagabounds , we are already gypsies, atleast have the spirit. He was making fun of me having an intense love for Edgar Allen Poe books. I want to be in Rural Italy in a big kitchen in the middle of the night cooking and looking outside the window looking at the moon and stars. The lighting would be dim and I would be wearing a 1940's red dress with flowers in my hair. A cig's smoke would rise and tickle my nose. Dancing by myself to Billie Holiday, waiting for someone's arms to be around me. Just someone hold me tight, alone in the night. ahhhh in one of those dreamy moods.