a new song and some thoughts.... maybe

When did sex start constituting as love or a relationship. I can't walk that parade, it's not me. See nothing seems to be about love lately. I am floating, hoping someone would come along. Everyone is a tease and a flake, but I can't blame them. I don't want to be owned. I want to be part of someone's life. It scares me to complete someone. I am a dissapointment and I wouldn't want to disappoint them. I don't even know if I want to be in love. I hate that ache you feel when you miss someone , or when your heart falls 1000 feet to the ground. He told me I move like no one has and that I touched him like no one else has. But everything has a line and I am tired of that script. I don't want someone to worship me, I am not a celebrity nor worthy of worship. I just want a hug and a kiss and an embrace to put my head together. I miss Tom Waits and he's getting married. I want to run and claim him, but there is no love there, just a game called lust. My body feels good againest his but maybe that's only because it's been so long. Once again, it's an uncomfortable embrace. I don't want anyone to know who you are or that I sleep with you. With all these failed relationships, I don't think I want to go around that mary go around one more time. It was dark and I was in Queens, Echo and The Bunnymen was playing in the background, I thought I was in California and I felt safe because no one knew I was there. Your passion is intense and from a world I don't think I am ready to experiance yet, it'll swallow me whole and I am afraid to escape.

A song ..... I'll leave it at that.... opinions anyone?