all i want is a rainbow

Midnight calls to try and find answers. I sleep all day because the
night is the only time I can have some time to myself. Been in a
dreamlike, haunting mood for several days, don’t know what to make out
of it. Rufus Wainwright’s whining comforts me. I need something to
break this down. I don’t want to look at your picture because if I
can’t be with you then I will have to pretend you don’t exist. I fast
to clean out all my thoughts, but it doesn’t seem to work. Ochestras
playing in my head with humming girls running in the rain. I know I
have to wait till you age for a while before I can ingest you. But
don’t tease me with your taste. I wish you could let me go but every
moment is captivating with you. Spending nights eating godiva ice cream
because that’s the only things that seems to be physically rich in my
life, and everything seems to be a dejavu.