This isn't our last goodbye

Lately I have been quiet. I haven't really called anyone except my friend Liz to tell her that i might be going to california, but that plan fell through, mostly because I would only have 3 days there and then have to come back for a huge work meeting. So I decided not to take the trip. I needed it though, I really did, I know I'll get a vacation sometime around next december but that just seems so fucking far away. I just wanted to lay on the beach with some good friends and relax. I wanted to take pictures and just ride around the bay are all night singing super loudly in a car. I hate money and the fact that you need it in this world to survive. I am glad that I am starting culinary school this coming monday, it'll give me something fun and creative to do as well as start my way towards better work in the future. I am going to wait until fall to get an apartment because I want a decent one, I know if I get one now, it'll be one that'll need a lot of work and I can't even afford that. In any case I just have to think about saving more money for my future apartment and loan payments. What I should get is a sugar daddy. Shit! But since I am not one to ever use people for shit I won't but wouldn't that be great.
Also some of my friends aren't talking to each other and it just makes it uncomfortable and sad. I mean now it's not going to be fun if I have to be careful who to invite to my parties or get togethers. I miss them too., i wish they were talking.
I gotta jet....