Opened Once....

I am getting half sick thinking about the death of Dave, it's crazy how it's been almost a year and sometimes I think it still hasn't hit me. I miss him so much, I feel like he's leaving me. I don't know.. I wish I had more time to know him, I wish I could have saved him, I wish he didn't leave. I haven't cried this hard in a long time, I hold in my tears so hard my head hurts. No one could ever replace him. I just think everything is mushy because he left so suddenly. I keep listening to Jeff's " Opened once" it reminds me of him because i feel like I am forgetting him sometimes. Dave, I am i can't talk right now