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I am a 25 year old lady.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

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ANSWER BITCHES

A - Accent: NYC, I suppose
B - Breast size: So, not saying.
C - Chore you hate: laundry
D - Dad's name: Sergio
E - Essential make-up: Eyeliner, and concelor because I look like I have been hit by Ike Turner
F - Favourite perfume/ cologne: This one my mom got me from paris
G - Gold or Silver: Silver, not all Puerto Ricans wear gold.
H - Hometown: NYC
I - Insomnia: occasionally
J - Job title: Starting next week, hopefully a expresso girl at The City Bakery
L- Living arrangements: with family, in less than 2 months, hopefully my new place
Mom's birthplace: NYC
O - Overnight hospital stays: When I was born, I suppose, and when I got my eye operation when i was 6
P - Phobia: ROACHES
Q - Favorite Quote: There are too many
R - Religious affiliation: QUAKER
T - Two you are tagging: FABIO AND LITA
U - Unnatural hair colours you've worn: Purple, red,fushia,blue,orange
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: That stuff that looks like period
W - Worst habit: overeating when I am depressed
X - X-rays you've had: ALL OVER MY BODY , BABY
CaY - Yummy foods you make: Lasagna, Eggplant with breadcrumbs, I make a lot of yummy stuff
- Zodiac sign: Sag, I am half a horse, explains why I like freedom.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Before Night

I feel like the last few months have been a blur. I mean I have about 30 lessons before school is done and I can't believe it went by so fast. I have to figure out a place I want to do my externship at by lesson 80 which is in 9 lessons, which means me buns gotta get to some serious work.
This weekend was bittersweet. I had a good time walking around the village with my sister, who is going off to Barnard tomorrow. I will miss my little roomate, but it'll be nice to have the room to myself. I need that time by myself. One friday I was feel a bit depressed because I feel kinda lonely. Also I want to lose weight but I can't do that without a sports bra, and right now I need to desperatly save money and hopefully score a job with this bakery. I think the people from this book agency are calling me, so hopefully I can get that job as well. The only person keeping me company this weekend was Billie Holiday. I like spending time listening to her.
My crush on Tom Waits is keeping me busy . I am looking for apartments in case this job works out, so i can move out by the end of next month or early Oct. Wow, October isn't far at all, kinda a sad thought.
Anyway it's getting late and I am getting tired. I have a busy day tomorrow... Good night Moon, good night everyone else

Sunday, August 28, 2005


Jeremy Irons, this man is so damn talented.... and sexy.... my sister saids there is a pattern with the men I like. All I know is that I love intense eyes, talent,mystery, and a little tortured Posted by Picasa


Gerald Butler has made Mary Kay throb many a time...... I miss watching his movies with you MK. Posted by Picasa


My turn: He has one of the sexiest voices in the world.... Clive Owen is the icing on my cake. Posted by Picasa

To Fabio since he likes the Smiths as much as I do

Shyness is nice andShyness can stop you
From doing all the things in life
You'd like to

Shyness is nice
andShyness can stop you
From doing all the things in life
You'd like to

So, if there's something you'd like to try
If there's something you'd like to try
Ask me I wont say no, how could I?


Coyness is nice,
andCoyness can stop you
From saying all the things in
Life you'd like to

Spending warm Summer days indoors
Writing frightening verse
To a buck-toothed girl in Luxembourg


Ask me, ask me, ask meAsk me, ask me, ask me
Because if it's not Love
Then it's the bond,
the bond, the bond,the bond, the bond, the bond, the bond
That will bring us together


Nature is a language - can't you read ?
Nature is a language - can't you read ?
So, ask me, ask me, ask me,Ask me,
ask me, ask me

Because if it's not Love
Then it's the bomb, the bomb, the bomb,the bomb, the bomb,
the bomb, the bomb
That will bring us together
If it's not LoveThen it's the bond'
Then it's the bond
That will bring us together
So, ask me, ask me, ask me
,Ask me, ask me, ask me
Oh, la...

Hear it today when I was in SOHO and thought of you


Remember people, it's never hot enough for this...... Martin put your shirt back on... Posted by Picasa


For my good friend Lita, because cl would be nothing without you and because you love New Order Posted by Picasa


For my boarding school ladies and myself. We used to drool over Matthew Fox.... ahhhh the days of Party of Five.... That show was never a party Posted by Picasa


This one is for Martin , who likes his men Asian.... His name is Ian Anthony Dale. Now , go masterbate Posted by Picasa

survey

1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A SECOND HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD IT BE?
San Fran, right by the ocean......
2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? !!!
My ripped up black old navy pants and all my band shirts. Also my black cardigan from Paris.

3. THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT?
I went to Rebel Rebel last week and got Tom Wait's = small change and Regina Specktor's sOVIET kITSCH.. I really need to stay away from any place that sells music and films because , I am in some serious debt due to them.

4. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
5:30-6:00 am
5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE?
Right now it's " Love me if you dare" and "Singles" Nothing like movies about insane romances....

.6. IF YOU COULD PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I wish i was an amazing pianist
.7. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? purple

.8. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR OR SUV? a vespa, motorcycle
9. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE?
I do believe in an afterlife and reincarnation.... I want to keep experiencing good things.

.10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK?
It was anything by Roald Dahl and judy blume, Pippi Longstocking, Anne of Green Gables
11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Spring and Early Fall
12. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
reading minds

. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? I don't have a tattoo, but i want some jeff buckley song lyrics on my lower back
14. CAN YOU JUGGLE? No, but I've tried. It was very embarassing.
15. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO? Collean O' Meara, my 4th grade teacher, she was nice, we went to concerts, restaurants, she left to Ohio to be with her fiance
16. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY?
Friday, a sense of freedom and hope


17. SUSHI OR HAMBURGER? Hamburger , though i can't eat them because my body can't take red meat.

18. FAVORITE FLOWER?
the purple balls, roses, tulips
19. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT? Yes, but I don't necessarily believe in One True Love. Does that make sense? Many True Loves, perhaps.

20. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR DREAM JOB?
A film star or rock star, might come true
.21. FAVORITE MEAL?

VEGGIE SAMOSAS, TAYLOR'S BROWNIES,

Saturday, August 27, 2005

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My life right now

This week was one that was very odd. It just proved to me that this city is full of freaks!!
On thursday morning, I became an aunt. My brother was crying on the phone about being a father. I was helping my friend Maia look for an apartment , and all we found were crazy ass motherfuckers, one guy wanted sex, another woman wanted a sign from a god to make sure she was the right fit. I got a horrible mid progress report from my chef, I hate that woman, but I only have two more weeks with her. I have a test and a couple more homeworks to prove to her that I actually care about pastry and baking. She doesn' t like me because I have a nose piercing and I wear men's ties. She said some weird comments about it when I came into class on friday. Who cares, the bitch is from Utah and was a mormon. What else, I got a job offer to be a research assistant to a man writing a book on sexual fetishes and trantric sex. I would interview people on their fetishes and learn more about tantric sex, while getting paid 3,450 a month. it's insane, I don't know how these people find me. He found me through someone I dated 2 years ago, let's just say i was recommended. I don't have fetishes but I am definatly interested in the history of them.. I am talking to his agency this thursday and getting a contract and all that stuff done and if i agree with everything, I get my first check in 3 weeks.
The first thing I am going to do with that check is pay off my credit card bill and get my own one bedroom apartment in the east village.
I am also going to record some songs next friday....
life is full of surprises
OK I gotta go buy new victoria secret underwear, and funky clothes
peace.

Friday, August 26, 2005

A new experimental song.... give me some insight

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Irene, stop fucking 12 year olds.... Posted by Picasa


Irene , your boyfriend desperatly needs his shirt back... Also try not to fuck him in our room. I would like to sleep at night... Posted by Picasa

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Angel mi amigito


My good friend Angel. I love this boy to death.... he's awesome and is always fighting for the cause....... We share the same hair.... I love him.

YERBA BUENA FOR FREE!!!!

Yay... I'm so there. Who wants to come???Performance and CD Signing at J&R Downtown Music Fest 2005As part of J&R Downtown Music Fest 2005 hosted by J&R Music and Computer World, Yerba Buena will treat New Yorkers to a taste of their "Island Life". Yerba Buena will perform at City Hall Park, across from J&R Music World (between Park Row and Broadway) in New York City on Saturday, August 26th at 12PM. Immediately following the performance, the band will be signing copies of the "Island Life" at J&R Music World.Knowlton RiverFest on Saturday NightYerba Buena will be returning to headline the Knowlton RiverFest in Delaware, New Jersey. The band will be playing at 8pm. For information on tickets and directions please visit the official website at:http://www.knowlton-fest.com/Be Sure to check our site often for more news and a full list of tour dates!http://www.yerbabuenamusic.com/

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

P.S. I AM WILDLY IN LOVE WITH TOM WAITS

Do you wanna go with me?

There are three weekends left at www.ps1.org I have never attended and I wanna go to their warm-up shows... check the site out and let me know people..... i wanna have a fun day full of dancing and chatting up folks...

Tuesday, August 23, 2005


My old room at Mills. I miss that place so much.. so many good memories. i used to sit on my bed eating sourdough bread and pepper brie while watching Tom Waits movies.... one day it shall happen again Posted by Picasa


My exact sentiments when it comes to the hispsters that live in my hood Posted by Picasa

Monday, August 22, 2005

Two albums that are spinning in my tongue and making the stars in my pants shine







Buy it, or download them.... well worth it.... Tom Waits.."The Piano is drinking (not me )" is funny as hell... Regina is like Bjork and Tom Waits child with some Joanna newsom song lyrics...

Sunday, August 21, 2005


little sisters and myself Posted by Picasa


Josh- guy in white , Me - girl laughing holding her head..... the Band - Doug and the Public offenders..... Night- awesome!!! Posted by Picasa


Don't lie , you know you have danced to this record. I did last night. It reminds me of my mom making platanos. Posted by Picasa

Thursday, August 18, 2005


My friend Jez, one of the sweetest girls on the planet, I miss her and I love this picture of her Posted by Picasa


I could never chase him twice
She lay in her bed thinking, over and over, how loss, was her
lesson to be learned in life. A tourniquet sent her misery in motion.
Relocation being her favorite therapy, how this city was a
drag. But every bright light and green tree hung in her memory over
her bed. the colors splattered red over canvas. She said it expressed
her closed hands like that time by the river with the flying
horses...she misses his freshly shaved skin and goatee. She misses her
him......
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M.I.A live at Central Park's Summer Stage.... Posted by Picasa

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

search for yourss

SEX SIGNS:

Aries women:Wildly sensual, passionate and adventurous. You'll have sex anywhere, you know what you want - intense and frequent sex, you have a need for complete control, but you're also in love with love. As a mate, you are ardent, loyal, sentimental, and earthly. Biggest thrill - the tickle of a man's facial fuzz.

Aries men:Sleeping with him is like playing croquet with live bombs - you never know what is going to happen! Never expect him to wait for you to be ready - he will rip your clothes off if he is ready to go. Don't tease him or you'd better be ready to deliver. Fond of slave master games and he likes it rough. Aries men are also explorers, so be ready to go where no woman has gone before. His favorite position: a woman on her knees leaning forward.

Taurus women:You expect your man to be kind and patient and make love to you by the book. Like to be pleased by sex, but don't look for unusual approaches. But you are a demanding lover and you leave your partner breathless. You have a need for oral gratification, both giving and receiving. Best sex mates: Cancer, Virgo, Sagittarius, Scorpio, and Leo. Most likely kink: sucking on your toes, one by one. You also like biting...hmmmm!

Taurus men:He is the ideal lover - sensitive and understanding of his partner's feelings. He prefers it slow and easy; he won't be your guide to the exotic unknown, but what he does, he does beautifully. This is the guy to go to for long and luxurious oral sex. Stamina? This man could wear down a glacier! His erogenous zone: gently and slowly kiss and bite the back of his neck.

Gemini women:Often the aggressor; you are never embarrassed by your behavior because you never adhere to any standards except your own. Your main requirement: a lover who knows how to take his time. You are a one woman harem, but a partner should be aware that in a relationship, the gemini woman is looking for a combination of the spiritual and the physical, the romantic and the practical. You want to talk to the guy after you tumble withhim! Best sex mates are Leo, Scorpio, Aquarians, Libra, and Aries. Favorite gadget: the vibrator.

Gemini men:He likes it with the lights on in front of the mirror. He can work any partner into the mood because he knows exactly how to evoke the right responses. Oral sex isn't his favorite pastime, but he will take his time with other preliminaries. Tends to be fast and furious, more concerned with satisfying himself than his partner, but he is more adequate in areas of lovemaking that are often neglected by other men. He can tell a woman exactly what she wants to hear. His erogenous zone: move your lips and tongue lightly up his arm.

Cancer women:Will never make the first move, but can be a marvelous lover for you. She is capable of intense sensuality. You will reciprocate passion with a fervor that will stir his heart and stimulate him to his best performance. On your own time, you have a fondness for masturbation. Your favorite position: lying prone while your man enters you from behind. Best sex mates: Taurus, Leo, Virgo, Scorpio, and Pisces. You may become a slave to sexual pleasure!


Cancer men:His most surprising technique: intercourse with no hands. He has a need for constant encouragement and if gotten, he will be a delightful swain. Both patient and aggressive, he will often begin somewhere other than the bad; likes being in command, and is a master at manual clitoral manipulation! You'll like the trip as it is as much traveling to a place as it is arriving.

Leo women:Sleek, lascivious, enticing and lazy! Whatever Leo wants, Leo gets! Intensely responsive and there are bed-partners who have scars to prove it. Your need to show off leads you to prefer the top where he can look up and admire the beauty of your body. Best sex mates: Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Aries. Your sexual wardrobe: full of wispy cut-out bras and panties!


Leo men:Simply brushes aside rules and conventions. One important rule to remember about him: NEVER tease. His endurance is remarkable and he has a great appetite for making love. He likes women in the submissive position and oral sex is okay only when he is on the receiving end. He likes a woman to show how much she is enjoying it. His erogenous zone: his back is particularly vulnerable.


Virgo women:You have no illusions about sex and wish everyone would stop magnifying its importance. Prefer men who will wait for the relationship to develop to the point where sex is inevitable. You love mutual masturbation and enjoy a little punishment, and your grace and modesty is a great turn on. You become an artist at pleasing your lover. Favorite kink: can't truly enjoy it unless a third party is present. Best sex mates: Gemini, Cancer and Aquarians.


Virgo men:Too shy to make an overture, but when the moment arrives, you had better be prepared for him to bring his pajamas, shaving equipment, and toothbrush. He likes to talk about how you like it and having talked about it, he will key in on the right erotic response. Don't expect imagination, but he is a hard worker and is open to suggestion. His secret life: can be obsessed with pornography. Erogenous zone: his buttocks.

Libra women:Drama is the key word - you set the stage for sex. Intensely feminine and an instinctive exhibitionist. You feel your body was made to be seen and admired. Feel that seduction is an art, not an assault. When approached the right way, you find it easy to say yes to almost anything. Unusual control of vaginal muscles. Best sex mates: Aries, Gemini, Leo, Scorpio, Sagittarius, and Aquarius. Like any position where your buttocks are exposed.

Libra men:Looks for the whole experience, not just a tumble between the sheets. Has a definite kinky side, a voyeur and fond of the menage a trois. He has the patience needed to satisfy. He likes women who dress well and have long hair. If a woman's clothes look as though they are easily removed, he finds her hard to ignore. Erogenous zone: back and buttocks, especially the feel of erect nipples against either of them!


Scorpio women:Inquisitive, searching, and experimental. Knows that eroticism consists of more than the physical act of lovemaking. While looking like a perfect lady in public, you dress and behave like a whore in the bedroom. Control of the orgasm is very important and will try anything to help your man maintain his potency. You never take no for an answer and when interested in someone, you will pursue him with determination and guile. Best sexmates: Gemini, Cancer, Virgo, Scorpio, Pisces. Props you love: scented body oils, flavored lubricating gels, and vibrators.

Scorpio men:A lustful, sexy animal. Enjoys biting and sucking and is a master of oral sex. Inflicting pain turns him on so he may pinch at nipplesor the insides of thighs. Likes it in the water, but his kink is thathe prefers wood tables and hard floors to satin and silk. His erogenous zone is his genitalia.


Sagittarius women:You like the outdoors - freaking out if you are in a tent, camper, or on the beach. You enjoy sex, but you don't like to prolong thepreliminaries and want to start the main show as soon as possible. Like to tease your partner to the point of losing control. You don't mind if your man comes too quickly - you are a generous and accepting lover. Best sex mates: Leo, Libra, and Aquarius. Your sexual wardrobe will consist of accessories -gloves and shoes!

Sagittarius men:Sex is rarely an intense experience with him - he often comes tooquickly, but he'll be the first to try a new position. He is the master of erotic massage - both oral and manual. His tongue can be a wicked instrument and when combined with his lips, creates an explosive effect! Erogenous zones: hips and thighs. And he likes to look at a woman's calves and thighs, and likes to have sex with a woman in stockings.


Capricorn women:Don't need much foreplay - you go from zero to WOW in nothing flat! Not interested in exotic variation; only staying in power. Since you like to dominate, you like to be astride your man, set a rhythm, and please yourself. Once into the rhythm, lovemaking becomes a wild contest with orgasm as the prize and you can depend on getting there more than once. Also a scratcher and a screamer. Best sex mates: Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio!!!!!!!! ;) and Pisces.



Capricorn men:Sex evokes the best he can offer. He is a planner and a schemer (that is a schemer, not a screamer!). Prefers a woman who knows what he enjoys, and he expects her to be willing and ready whenever he wants her. Has the stamina of a marathon runner. Here is the man who will hold off until you are ready to scream! Erogenous zone: a massage that starts at the lowerback and gently strokes upward along the sides of his spine.Aquarius women:A slow starter, you idealize love and encompass it with tenderness. Once aroused though, anything goes! Extremely imaginative and likes trying new things. There is nothing in any sex manual that you won't try. Belief that anything that increases the pleasure for your partner is worthwhile. Best sex mates: Aries, Gemini, Libra, Sagittarius, and Aquarius. Favorite sex position: standing up, and in water.



Aquarius men:Never treats a woman like a sex object and prefers a variety of foreplay before getting down to it. May have be to revved up, but once his engine is started, he is free and inventive with amazing persistence. He will always see you through to climax. A woman who knows what she wants will be very happy. He usually ensures an orgasm twice - once orally and once genitally. Erogenous zones: gently touching the calves and ankles willget him going. Be careful though - a kinky Aquarian can be a sadist who doesn't like to be denied!




Pisces women:Always make the right moves, say the right things, and create the right ambiance. You are sexually liberated and enjoy a wide range of eroticism. If his fantasies coincide with yours, the action can really get torrid! You seldom say no to anything your lover suggests! Favorite places: in a waterbed or hot tub. Best sex mates: Cancer, Virgo, Scorpio, Capricorn, Pisces.



Pisces men:Takes the lead in lovemaking and impatient if he doesn't get a swift response. Indifferent to sexual restrictions, both moral and legal; prefers a partner with a tremendous sexual craving. Likes sex in a chair. He likes to be submissive. Becomes an addict to anything that will give pleasure and release. Erogenous zone: massaging and caressing his feet.


James Dean- Aaron's hero Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, August 16, 2005


My friend Chrysa and her Boyfriend Nicola... a sweet picture of them Posted by Picasa


let's see if this is clearer Posted by Picasa