nicolas mendez

i miss them

So it's not all bad

so yesterday when I woke up everything seemed to be going all wrong, so I slept most of the day. My friend Matty called me and pulled me outta the house. We ate a slice and then went to go to see " CSA : Conferderate States of America". It's a movie about what would happen if the South would have won the war. It was hilarious and disturbing all at once. After that I had a martini and went straight to work. I didn't go to work right away, I sat around in the office and read my email. I got one from my pastry stating some really good news about a possible new job. The second was from this guy I am kinda interested in. He wanted to take me out but I got the email to late. Too Bad, I think he needs to learn to call people. Anyway , I have to admit the email made my night. He ended up being online on that new gmail chat and we chatted for a while and then I went off to baking. I assume his ass went to bed, were I truly wanted to be. In anycase it's 6:30 and I have two cookies to make and then I can leave. I will be done by 8 am most likely then I'll go to my sweet bed and finally sleep.
Oh wait, so the story with this guy is , he's been trying to ask me out for nearly a year and I have said no everytime. Why, you ask? Because he was Puerto Rican and from the Bronx and I thought he would be ghetto. I know I know, Hella fucked up.....but look growing up in catholic schools, les and having a very mental pr father you don't really want to go there. So I finally gave him a chance and was blown away. He was so intelligent, we have WAY TOO much in common and he's sweet. Plus it doesn't hurt that his favorite food is INDIAN food.... By the way, he's hella FINE. Anyway, something could happen between us or he can turn into song lyrics either way only time can tell.
Till then , wish my ass luck...

Live at my bedroom

• I am not saying that living in california is going to be easier but I know that the people around me are going to be more positive. Lately I have been feeling like one or two of my friends here aren't being very honest with me or themselves. The truth is I have been having this feeling for a very long time . I am trying to decide whether I want to be friends with them anymore. Honestly is a huge thing for me and I can't be around people who are under constant illusions.
  
  I am in a crabby mood today because ever since I came back from my my trip to california everyone has been on me constantly. My family is constantly asking for more and more time from me and I keep denying them. I need to live my own life . I know that I am saving money for california and packing but I feel like it's not soon enough. My work place has become somewhat untrustworthy. I found this ad on cl about clinton street wanting a new head baker and I told shelby, I just can't believe the owner would do that to her after working with her for 10 years. Then again, he doesn't ever tell us to our faces if he doesn't like something we've made. He usually has someone else tell us which is just unprofessional.
  Anyway , today seems like a beautiful day so I want to walk around and maybe take some applications with me and start sending them off. Even, if I can't go to college this fall , I'll do it this spring.
  PEACE EVERYONE