update

I stopped dating Jeff, (the jeff from the party) he wasn't who I thought he was, which is ok. You live you learn.
I was also working at Empire City Bagel on 24th and 6th but just was so unhappy there. I see myself doing pastry and in a much better better and bigger place. So I quit and saturday was supposed to be my last day but my chef's mother ended up in the hospital and yesterday ended up being my last day.
I applied to this new upscale Bakery that will be opening up in Union Sq called " Tisserie", I don't think I'll get a job there because they are looking for very experianced bakers and pastry cooks and I am not even close. Though I have to give myself some credit and say that I am a fast learner. I would just love to learn to do pastry and baking at a very professional level with all the right equipment. I think being surrounded by people who feel inspired by all the same things would be a great learning experience.
I am also applying to other places.
I do wonder though that if I do these applications will I actually move to california. I need to start really looking at bakeries there. I want to finish college as well but I am in so much debt as it is, I don't know what is the right plan.
I have my second interview at Tisserie today, which is a little intimidating because I will be meeting the owners slash chefs. Hopefully they'll give me a shot, if not I am not too worried.
Anyway something amazing happened the other day.... my 7 month old nephew danced with me, I was listening to some Youssour N' Dour and cooking and he got up on his crib and started laughing. When I put the chicken in the oven and looked at him, he was holding on to the crib with one hand and flairing the other while moving his hips and feet. SO CUTE!
Anyway, I must go sleep for another 3 hours, get up, organize this messy room and prepare for my interview. Wish me luck!!!

Getting Rid of my Static

have been quiet the last couple of days. I am no longer working and even though I know I need to get a job but I think I need to get other things cleared out before that. I spent one night at Marti's house and we just talked and slept. I then spent three nights at Maia's and helped her paint her living room . It was a very relaxing three days. I needed that.
So for the first time in my life I have a spiritual teacher, his name is Jeff.
I am starting a cleansing, spiritual and fitness journey. I am going to start taking classes at
Ch'an Meditation CenterRamakrishna-Vedanta CenterIntegral Yoga Center
It's great because a lot of them are free so all I have to pay for is the metrocard over to the places. I just need to get rid of this constant static that keeps lingering in my head. I am also making a list of things that have hurt me this year, I believe they are still in my system. I am also trying to stay away from people that aren't healthy for me. I have to admit that some of my friendships have fallen apart and to be honest, it's for the best part. If you're going to ask me if you are one of the people, then you should already know that answer. Myspace can be a wonderful place to meet people but also a place to start unnecessary drama. I am going to start getting people off my list that I feel shouldn't be there anymore. To be honest though, there aren't many of you.
I am excited for this new journey. It might slowly clear up all these questions I am having in my head...
so here I go Tai Chi, Buddhist Bows, Yoga and all around health!!!!!