I wanna go higher and closer to my dreams

goapele= closer

I love this video because it reminds me of my first year at mills. Goapele, came to mills and played an intimate show, she is more breathtaking live than in this video. I also like her room, that's excatly how i would decorate mine. Soul Sistah, you're right Martin! There is this naustagia that I keep having for the bay area. I know I'll return shortly I just found myself there and living in nyc sometimes i feel like hiding forever. Not that no one gets me, I just don't feel in my element here at times. There was this serenity over there that I miss. Living in a house were everyone is always screaming at each other gets to me. I don't want to see anyone and I don't want anyone to see me. I feel insane, I feel like kristi Alley in " Fat Actress" and choked. I am always doubting myself and cry constantly. This depression is eating me away. I dream about performing all the time and I know when I get my stuff from california next week that I will feel a bit more grounded.
those are truly my thoughts.