Last Night

Last night, I don't know what came over me, I think I have been holding things in a little too long. I just got really sad. I ate dinner with Chrysa and then went walking around. I stopped by Virgin Megastore and did some shopping. I got "BoonDock Saints" and " Closer" and the new Deluxe Edition of NIN's The Downward Spiral. I think I just needed some retail therapy. I got a call from a grade school friend and we went out for coffee. It was nice seeing him again and now I have a movie buddy. My orginal plan was to go to the movies, but I am so tired of seeing movies alone, so I left. I might go today, we'll see. I felt better after seeing Kenneth, he always makes me laugh, he's just like he was when we were 10, ridiculous and obessed with vampires. I guess that's why we got along. I took a cab home and went to bed. I got woken up by my friend Brandon, who called me to see what I was doing this following week. I wanted to tell him I was alright and act like I wasn't upset, but I decided to tell him the truth and to my surprise he was feeling the same way and we talked for about 2 hours. It was comforting to know someone else has these episodes. Anyway, I gotta get going on my BA. applications and trying to find some more loans. I also need to apply to some jobs today. There is one at a restaurant on 13th and Broadway and a cafe on St. Mark's Place, I am going for. Wish me Luck. I am just going through a frustrating time right now. I just hope all this work I am putting in is going somewhere soon. I just want to get my life in motion and sometimes I feel like all I do is go in circles. So on another note, if anyone wants to see a movie, call me up!!!