Butterfly memories

Man cleaning up my room definatly did something wonderful for my pysch. I woke up in a better mood. Last night I was feeling somber,partly due to thinking about my first year at Mills and how much I truly miss it. I can still smell the trees and hear Floetry coming out of my radio. I remember one time my roomate and I were in the bathroom together just talking about her boyfriend and there were candles around. I know sounds pretty lesbonic but I was just so close to her, it wasn't really like that. My room was so beautiful, I have video footage of it, sometimes I catch myself looking at it once and a while. Those were some good times. I remember Emily waking me up early in the morning by jumping on my bed, and we would blast Tool, do our makeup and go to breakfast. I think about that year so much was because it was the first time I was trily free, without prents and people who judged me. I went into Mills with a boyfriend and then broke up with him after two months of being there because he would call me 5 times in a day and get all paranoid on me. He didn't trust me and I didn't need that stress of trying to prove him that I cared just because the last girl was unfaithful. I have to admit that was the greatest thing I did, I have been pretty single ever since and it's been nice. I do have my moments and I did have my crushes but I know that I need someone to understand me and be able to keep up and until I find that person, I'll be single. He has a girlfriend now but he doesn't love her, he calls me ever so often to remind me how much I fucked him up, it's been 3 years, get over it. I know I sound harsh but if you knew him, and some of you do, you would be saying the same thing. Anyway, I think I am going to my friend's house tonight and playing the keyboard again, I don;t know how to play it but I just like fucking around with it. I have a good musical relationship with him, I think we have something musically going on.Maybe we can form a band or something. In any case I gotta go to the bank and get some money for the NIN tickets I am getting today, go to the library to return books and go see what kinda books I can buy at Barnes and Nobles.