big bang baby

Tonight I am a mess! I need to go to work and honestly i feel like playing hooky, but in my type of work , one cannot play hooky. Neil (my boss) wants me to fix my schedule to come in early in the morning instead of working at midnight. What he doesn't understand is the fact that after working the midnight shift for a month and half now, it's hard to get back on that track. So tonight instead of using this time to work, I am at home, in my underwear, writing a blog. I know if I put clothes on and head over to work, I am just going to get cracky and tired, because my body and soul knows I hate it there, so it'll slow me down. My plan is to write this blog and go to bed for a two hour nap and then get up and try and finish everything by 9 am.


I also cut my hair, I know I know, what the fuck. I have a valid explanation. My hair was damaged from the winter, this shit doesn't happen in california. It was so dry I had to cut off close to 3 inches. So now I have like a 1920's bob or 1990's bob, either way I am getting used to it. Don't worry I am still growing my hair but I hate having split ends and gross rough hair.

Anyway, I can't sleep tonight because this move to california has me up.I am still deciding on it. Everyone here is begging me to stay and honesty I don't know what to do anymore. I am going to see about this new job that I have lined up and see if I have enough money to be able to move to my own place. But, honestly, I want to do more than cook. I want to be a bellydancer, tribal one that is, I want to sing and finish my BA and I don't know if I can do that here......
plus there is another matter, but i;ll decide on it after my party on the 15th.