a new song

The love that I lost, that I never had. My mind spins with images of rejections. Dream sistah, with my tears falling down my face. I don't want to give up but I don't even know how to start. How the words slip out of my mouth to tell you what you make me feel in the short time we had together. This intensity is something I would never want to utter, for fear of trembling. Hoping you would You are far and it's no use, Maybe I am as insane as others claim I am. I close my eyes and still see you turning your hat around to kiss me, many moons ago. I don't need slavation, just a bottle of wine to ease the sour tears. What am I waiting for? no one will come.. to sit here by the window and drink this pain away. Searching through the lyrics of our favorite songs to find meaning of what has become of me.All I can see are your eyes on the road, the way I would keep them if I was with me. Lost in what still hasn't passed me by but what i don't have the courage to face. Don't cut this short, let me soak in it. Sitting by the ocean looking over the stars. Another swinging time by the fingers i can still feel on my skin.