Lead singer of Devotchka. He is now my husband. You all need to see them live, they are simply amazing. 

My friend Dave who passed away. 13 was a lucky number for him.... i miss you my dream brother. 

this is Ian again, I now have this hat.... he may never see it again, muahahahaha 

This is my friend Ian, from Omaha. He likes brown girls 

this is one of the funniest things ever 

too funny.... thanks kurt

You should all go, i know i am

http://mkgallery.moonfruit.com/download/4514849407/500000f12417a0f165c9a9b67e8c8256b0601020404030f0a0e0f051/guest/4005376888/4509826743/MKPrelease.pdf

One of my favorite songs: just like a woman by bob dylan

Nobody feels any pain
Tonight as I stand inside the rain
Ev'rybody knows
That Baby's got new clothes
But lately I see her ribbons and her bows
Have fallen from her curls.
She takes just like a woman, yes, she does
She makes love just like a woman, yes, she does
And she aches just like a woman
But she breaks just like a little girl.
Queen Mary, she's my friend
Yes, I believe I'll go see her again
Nobody has to guess
That Baby can't be blessed
Till she sees finally that she's like all the rest
With her fog, her amphetamine and her pearls.
She takes just like a woman, yes, she does
She makes love just like a woman, yes, she does
And she aches just like a woman
But she breaks just like a little girl.
It was raining from the first
And I was dying there of thirst
So I came in here
And your long-time curse hurts
But what's worse
Is this pain in here
I can't stay in here
Ain't it clear that
I just can't fit
Yes, I believe it's time for us to quit
When we meet again
Introduced as friends
Please don't let on that you knew me when
I was hungry and it was your world.
Ah, you fake just like a woman, yes, you do
You make love just like a woman, yes, you do
Then you ache just like a woman
But you break just like a little girl.

Reasons why I avoid the Village Voice

The White Stripes sept 25
Youssou n dour oct 27
Damien Marley oct 3rd
goapele sept 21
Missy elliot, ludacris, erykah badu and common oct 8th only 20 bucks!!!
ANTONY AND THE JOHNSONS OCT 13TH!!!!!!!
Oct 20th Deverndra Banhart and Hairy Fairy
Oct 28th Devotchka with Dresden Dolls
oct 17th The Dirty Three
Now, do you all see my issue. Now I will be in debt even more and probably be busy all october and september. I love these people and I love shows. Thanks Village Voice, for making me just a little more poorer.

my nephew and friends

My brother came over at 3pm, accompanied by his girlfriend and their baby. My bro needed a break so I took care of little Richie for a couple of hours. I read to him and we listened to Billie Holiday and Sigur Ros. He seems to be especially drawn to the posters on my wall. He fell asleep on me, it was the most amazing feeling in the world. I mean, to have someone , so comfortable with you that they sleep on you. My bro said he only sleep on me, they have to put him in the carriage for him to sleep. He is going to be my new best friend. I am seeing him again tomorrow, then I am hanging out with Ian and going to sell my belongings. I have 20 lessons left and then I am done with school. I then delve into my 6 week externship.

Last night was lovely. I went to greenpoint, where aaron lives and ate dinner with him and Lizz and then we watched Anne of Green Gables. We all fell asleep and then he gave me cab money and I went home. It was the best dinner. I really needed a night with good friends.
Anyway I am cooking as I write, like the girl in Sex and Lucia, but now I gotta log off, do laundry , get my cookie fix and call some folks. Peace

I AM NOT TURNING INTO SOMETHING I AM NOT

So I need a vacation now! I don't have the funds to leave so I have to wait a while. But when I do it'll be great. I decided I am not going to give up my dignity or integrity because of money. So I really want my own place, but that might have to wait 3 months, because every time I talk to this man, he makes my stomach turn and I want to grab a knife and kill myself, because I can't believe what I am doing. So fuck him, let him pick another girl. I just don't have it , to pry into over people's lives, and have him get off on it. I am still waiting on this espresso girl position and then once I get my hours for those , I can start doing my own personal cheffing thing. I can't handle creeps anymore. I am done with fucking disgusting, weird mutherfuckers.
This weekend was a weird one. I had a meltdown yesterday for several reasons, but one of then was because of the reason above . Another reason was missing Dave, yesterday I felt his spirit, I just felt like he was reminding me of who I was again. I wish I could have talked to him before he passed away. I didn't hear from him for 2 weeks, and nex thing i know, he's dead. Life is so sad sometimes. But, I want to thank him for watching over me now. Thanks Dave and you know how much I love you, my dear friend.
I have some good news. I have been hanging out with someone and it's great. We walk around NYC late at night and talk and he revitalizes me. I am glad I kept bumping into him and we are hanging out now..... the rest I will keep to myself.
anyway I gotta go

Who is coming with me???

When:Friday Sep 23, 2005at 10:00 PMWhere:LUKE+LEROY'S21 7th Avenue South, betw Carmine & Leroy Sts.New York, NY 10014US
DJ Mister X spins Siouxsie * Depeche Mode Bauhaus * The Cure * Sisters of Mercy * Joy Division * Ministry * Covenant * Apop * VNV Nation And More!Your RSVP:Attending + 1 guests
Free admission – STARTS 10PM 1/9 Train to Houston Street A,C,E,B,D,F,V to W. 4 StreetHosted By: Mister XWhen: Friday Sep 23, 2005 at 10:00 PMWhere: LUKE+LEROY'S21 7th Avenue South, betw Carmine & Leroy Sts.New York, NY

woooohooooo

It's 5:50 am and I am about to take a shower and shave my damn legs, it's been longer than I would like to say, but we will have our bathroom back this weekend, so now i can shave on a regular basis. In anycase, I am excited because next thursday at 8 pm Maia and I will be singing to the likes of Regina Specktor and Devotchka. Next Friday, my sister and I will be laughing to the likes of Dane Cook. So I can't wait till then. This december my birthday month is going to be the bomb. I am planning to see : Depeche Mode, Sigur Ros, lenoard cohen, and much more i am sure.....
anycase gotta go take a shower and get on with my day....
school until 12 pm,
trailing at the polka dot studio at 1 pm
and hanging out with my friend Ian at 11 pm.

Kanye West, New Orleans and the state of this motherfucking country

Kanye West, New Orleans and the state of this motherfucking country Current mood: angry
I am in bitter tears, streaming from my eyes, stinging my throat, because I am in utter rage over what is going on in New Orleans. Condi and Bush were at photo shoots and shopping while thousands of people were dying and trying to survive. It doesn't matter, though, right, because barely anyone in New Orleans voted for Bush and 75% of the people there are black. It also doesn't help that it's one of the poorest city in the United States. I mean what the fuck, there is no one over there helping them, they aren't letting The Red Cross in, cops are quitting, they didn't start sending in the national guard until several days later. Basically Bush is telling everyone " Die Nigger, because I don't care, what's one less Nigger in this world".
I see my generation divided between two types of people : Those who care and those who don't.Don't be apathatic, stop worrying about your clothes, we are going to be in deep shit if we don't stand up and do something. I don't even know what else to say. We need to educate ourselves and not forget that we share this earth with others. Money isn't everything. So if you have some extra time, bucks whatever try and help the people in New Orleans. The world shouldn't revolve around how cute you look in your fake bohemian chic Urban Outfitters outfits!!!!!
STEP UP TO THE PLATE AND SERVE SOME......

Bush to New Orleans: Drop Dead

September 2, 2005
Flood of Fools
Bush to New Orleans: Drop Dead
By HARVEY WASSERMAN


George W. Bush is in New Orleans today to deliver a clear and unmistakable message: Drop Dead.Little in our history can match his administration's astounding non-response to this excruciating human catastrophe.Before Katrina, even Bush's harshest critics might have found non-credible his leaving tens of thousands of American citizens to suffer and die in utterly gratuitous squalor, disease, hunger and thirst.Taxpaying American citizens are dying in the heart of a great city because their government can't be bothered to get them clean water. Or a bed. Or to a hospital.The weather has been clear since Katrina passed. Bush commands the world's most advanced armada of land, sea and airborne vehicles. The resources to save our brothers and sisters are readily available.But we see our elders, black and white, sitting confused and in pain, dying of heat and thirst and utter neglect in clear, sunny weather while the President of the United States babbles aimlessly and the Secretary of State shops for shoes.We see babies by the dozen dying of dehydration and hunger where there is no war and no storm, only incompetence and contempt.Global warming caused this storm. And there are no secrets about the corruption and stupidity that weakened New Orleans's earthen defenses and opened the floodgates.The Bush junta slashed funds for levees, let the wetlands be drained, let the developers rape and pillage. It assaulted those who warned the city would be laid bare to the storms everyone knew would come.But even from this unelected gang of thugs and thieves, the horrifying abandonment of New Orleans has taken things to a new level.Amidst a dire crisis, American citizens put their trust in the government. They walked into the Superdome. And they were utterly, cynically abandoned. No food. No water. No emergency electricity. No organized evacuation. No cleaning of the bathrooms. No disinfectants for the hot, damp, stinking stadium. No provisions for fresh clothing. No medical care for the elderly. No formula for the babies. No sanitary facilities for pregnant women. No insulin for diabetics. No injections for the sick. No policing. No leadership. No airlift of doctors, nurses, EMTs, psychologists, medicinesÖ.nothing!Only a big, empty vacuum, the ultimate symbol of an administration with absolutely nothing in its head or heart.That the federal government has utterly failed in these lethal days is universally obvious.Is it because so many of these people are black and poor? Is it because Bush has successfully stolen a second term and just doesn't care? Is it because this gouged and battered organization that was once our government has been so thoroughly exhausted by war and corruption that it cannot or will not manage so basic a task as bringing the necessities of life to its needlessly dying citizens?Fox News and macho fools like Haley Barbour, the corrupt and inept Republican governor of Mississippi, will rant endlessly about a few looters and the shot that may or may not have been fired at rescue helicopters. We will see endless footage of the African- American family arrested for "stealing" a car so they could escape and live.But to hear of dead bodies being stacked outside a professional football stadium to avoid further stench where ten thousand Americans can't get water, food or sanitary facilities.To see dazed elders who've just lost their homes or hospital rooms being laid on sidewalks to die. To watch crying children stretched out on the ground, separated from their parents, dehydrated, overheated, starving....this is too much to bear.How utterly can our nation have failed? How totally bankrupt can we be?As we mourn our most colorful city, the home of our truest American music, and of so much gorgeous history and culture.we are heartsick and disgraced.These global-warmed hurricanes will be coming again and again.And with this ghastly Bush crew, soul-killing scenes like these will define our nation.---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Remember that within days of 9/11, the Bush regime executed a multi-billion dollar bailout for the airline industry. By the time you hear this commentary, they may have already used the New Orleans disaster to bail out the insurance industry one of the richest businesses on the planet. But what of the people of New Orleans, 67 percent of whom are Black?New Orleans is a poor city. Twenty-eight percent of the population lives below the poverty line. Well over half are renters, and the median value of homes occupied by owners is only $87,000.

awww look what i found. Mk and I covering nin songs

from the bay to the east

I would like to dedicate this blog to several elements in my life.
First to the sky, moon and stars for watching over me , for helping me understand more about myself and the earth. For being a hippie dippy lady.
I would like to thank my experience in the bay area. You opened up my eyes more than you'll ever know. I miss taking rides in the middle of the night listening to the Smiths with Lita, and getting coffee all the way in San Jose. I miss getting semi naked at Mills Parties. I miss my rooms, the ones I was in when I lived there. I miss Founder's breakfast and hearing all the stories from the night before. I miss hairy lesbian girls who argued in class about not being rasist because they spent the summer in South Africa. gETTING BUBBLE TEA. Going to Berkeley and seeing movies alone. Eating the best Thai food at Lotus Flower in Piedmont. Miss all the queer classes I took with all beautiful girls. Taking film classes with Fred Frith and other famous people. Having Joanna Newsom in poetry class with you. I miss Miko's insane remarks about lily marie, we all know how rude she was. All the weirdos I dated. Those weird moments at Frat parties, with Carolyn, kate and Asra. Going to Amoeba and buying out the store. Getting a piercing every spring. The night when 20 mills ladies went to see " Underworld" and we were all laughing at the underlining racism in the movie, while everyone else was pissed off. Being told I was going to go to a movie and instead was taken to sex clubs. Missing my holocaust class because I couldn' deal with watching people getting killed every thursday for 4 hours..and still getting an A. Going to the beaches and being blown away by the massive winds. I miss the trees. My mills ladies, Erika, Vince, Johnathon, Tim, and the rest of you ...... you are loved.
To my old and new friends in nyc, I don't want to fall out of touch, so keep in touch., I don't care if you are getting laid, pregant, working , studying, masterbating, overeating, starving, etc...... CALL A SISTAH...... I love you all as well.
cynthia